All right so the next step since coming to the realization that I have anxiety was accepting it. I successfully spent the weekend in some ridiculous stupor. I wasn't able to focus, I slept poorly and I got agitated over things that are out of my control.
Today is Sunday and I've decided that I'm done with that phase of anxiety. I gave in completely for two or three days and it stunk. My solution: regroup. That's what I'm going to be doing over the next few days.
Unfortunately this weekend was one of little sleep for my highly emotional kids and there were many power struggles to be had. As we drove home I was exhausted mentally, emotionally, and physically. So, tonight I am allowing myself some much needed "me" time. I am not stressing over chores (and let me tell you the house is a mess. Laundry is starting to take over the laundry room, things need to be picked up and put back where they belong, the fridge is in desperate need of being cleaned out, I need to vacuum, dust, clean the bathrooms, sweep and mop). Instead, when I get home I am going to chill. I am going to enjoy some time w/ my husband and perhaps read a good book.
Tomorrow I will create a plan of action. This would be one of those instances where I have to make an effort to sit down and make sure I keep things balanced.
Balance...what a tricky concept.
How does one balance religion, family, house work, mental health and friendships? I'll let you know when I have a good system going!
As of now, I tend to take things one day at a time (hence the name of the blog) and I rely heavily on my best friend and husband to help me find the proper prospective on things.
Right now I'm letting go. Sounds so simple, right? Of course it does, some of the most difficult things that have to be done in life sound simple.
I'm letting go of things that I can't control. There is a particular situation that I have tried and tried to fix and from my perspective the other person has not put forth any effort. I'm done for now. I'm done dwelling on it and making assumptions regarding motives. I'm done trying to come up with different approaches. I'm simply taking a break. Eventually I will have to revisit the situation again. It will be unavoidable because my feelings keep getting involved (and hurt), but hopefully the next time it needs to be addressed I will have a clearer head.
Tomorrow the kids and I have a plan to spend some time with friends. I will also focus on the chores that I have designated to Mondays and will not even acknowledge the other things that need to be done.
I'll let you know how that goes!