I had such a productive morning and the kids did great! So now I'm wondering why I all the negative aspects of the day are catching up to me and making me feel overwhelmed...
I am reading a great new fiction book and one hand it is an inspiration, and on the other hand it's intimidating. I started writing my own young-adult fiction book and am stuck. I just don't feel all that creative. Some of my book is based on these insane stories my grandma told me when I was a kid. I can tell those and add to them a bit and base characters on people I actually knew. The problem arises when I need to create my own stuff. My dream is to publish it some day, but then I pick up a good, well-written young-adult fiction book and I feel like my story can never be that good....
Also, while today was productive, I didn't get much done inside the house. The kids and I were gone all morning/early afternoon and then it was time to get dinner and get everyone ready for Church tonight so my housework didn't get done. We're planning to be gone tomorrow morning for a bit too, and right now I just feel like I need to stay home and get things done here.
THEN tonight at Church I was briefly mistaken for a lady who is probably 100lbs. heavier than I am--certainly a blow to my ego. I know I'm not small, but I'm not that big!
Anyway, I'm hoping a good night's rest will help me feel refreshed.
I desperately want to be an optimist, but it just doesn't come as naturally to me as it does to some. Tonight is a great example. I am trying hard to remind myself that today was overall a good day, and that tomorrow I can start afresh. It's just a lot easier said than done.
So, here's to hoping tomorrow my head is clear and I can focus on being positive!
~Alexis
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