So some of you might be wondering where I've been. To be honest, I've been avoiding my blog. I was intimidated. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I really liked the 30 day photo project I did. There were several reasons, but we'll just leave it at that: I really liked the project. Just the thought of trying to come up with something to follow that was intimidating. So I did what I do best: I avoided it.
Thankfully, even though I've been quiet on the blog, I've done a Lot of self examination.
I've had a couple of great counseling sessions, and I've made a lot of changes in my perspective. Somewhere in the last 3 months I hit a major turning point, and it's been nice!
I realized that these past few years I've still been depressed, just not nearly as badly as I was initially. Now I'm even coming out of that and it's nice. It feels good to be happy. It's nice to have a clean house. It's nice to have happy-ish kids and a happy dog (yes, on bad days I even felt guilted by the dog).
I am blessed to have a husband who has loved me when I didn't even love myself. I've always thought he was amazing, but to realize that he saw something in me that I didn't even discover in myself until 10 years after we got married....that's almost unfathomable.
I feel like I'm finally coming into my own. I'm becoming happy with the person I am. I'm a little socially awkward, and that's ok. I have quirks, but that's what makes me fun!
In some ways I feel like I have been mature beyond my years, but in other ways (like being comfortable with who I am), I feel like I was Very immature. I've finally started to grow out of that phase in my life, and I like it.
Thankfully, even though I've been quiet on the blog, I've done a Lot of self examination.
I've had a couple of great counseling sessions, and I've made a lot of changes in my perspective. Somewhere in the last 3 months I hit a major turning point, and it's been nice!
I realized that these past few years I've still been depressed, just not nearly as badly as I was initially. Now I'm even coming out of that and it's nice. It feels good to be happy. It's nice to have a clean house. It's nice to have happy-ish kids and a happy dog (yes, on bad days I even felt guilted by the dog).
I am blessed to have a husband who has loved me when I didn't even love myself. I've always thought he was amazing, but to realize that he saw something in me that I didn't even discover in myself until 10 years after we got married....that's almost unfathomable.
I feel like I'm finally coming into my own. I'm becoming happy with the person I am. I'm a little socially awkward, and that's ok. I have quirks, but that's what makes me fun!
In some ways I feel like I have been mature beyond my years, but in other ways (like being comfortable with who I am), I feel like I was Very immature. I've finally started to grow out of that phase in my life, and I like it.
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